It's hard to really let go and let God, but in a way, I think this struggle is also a blessing because we all know that suffering allows you to grow. I need to learn to be a more cheerful giver and to not take so much ownership of my possessions. I need to learn to confront and discuss things in a godly manner, and I know this is one way God will teach me... Just give me strength! Thank God for today's morning prayer =)
Still, I can't wait to go home. I'm sick of the city and how it's wearing me out. I want to be loved and be taken care of. I want to be in the comforts of my own home and know that I can just... relax and not always have to give and be there for others. It's a selfish desire.... but I just want someone to reach out to me too, and I know my mom is always there for me. I'm so thankful for my mom.... I have really come to appreciate her so much these past couple of months.