These days, I've been struggling to discern my own desires from God's. I think that's one of the hardest things to figure out. I want to follow my own thoughts and ways so badly, but I'm pretty darn sure they're not going to end up the way I think they will. I mean, I can't tell the future, so how can I try to control and plan out what to do? I can't! But, I struggle because I still try to; I can't seem to give up control on certain areas in my life. I trust in God, I really do, but sometimes, my actions don't reflect that. Yield to God and His plan, Hyemyung! He knows the past, present, and future; He knows what's best for me, how things will turn out.
It's so easy to follow my own desires though. I make choices that are not necessarily beneficial to my own spiritual life. I want something, I want to pursue, but now is definitely not the right time. Give me patience Lord! Let me be patient with Your timing and have the strength to follow Your will. Seek in God first, and everything will naturally unfold according to His plan.
I was reading Psalms 19 today, and this is my prayer:
"The law of the Lord is perfect, reviving the soul. The statutes of the Lord are trustworthy, making wise the simple... They are more precious than gold, than much pure gold; they are sweeter than honey, than honey from the comb. By them is your servant warned; in keeping them there is great reward. Who can discern his errors? Forgive my hidden faults. Keep your servant also from willful sins; may they not rule over me. Then will I be blameless, innocent of great transgression. May the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be pleasing in your sight, O Lord, my Rock and my Redeemer" (v. 7, 10-14).