This is my blog, and I'm not gonna pretend or hide any of myself in anyway. When I feel elated, you'll know it; when I'm utterly depressed, you'll know it. Still, even through my ups and downs on this so-called roller coaster of life, I have got my God on my side. I may not realize this at times, and I might sound like a fool, but I'm only momentarily hopeless.
With that said, I just finished watching Sense and Sensibility, and Marianne reminds me a little of myself: impulsive with little thought to the consequences of her actions or words. Hmm... I feel like I think too much, yet too little at the same time. I am seriously just a walking contradiction as a person. Oy. I still need some sense knocked into me.
A new year usually brings about resolutions, but I have never been good at keeping those. I have so many desires and wishes, but I lack the impetus to make them happen. This makes me really wonder if I have truly grown as a person- not in terms of spirituality because I have no doubt that God definitely has been blessing me so much- but in terms of humanity. I feel as if I am still innately the same lazy, selfish person. Every day, my indolence starts to disgust me more, but I can't help it. I choose comfort over... I don't know what the latter would be.
So maybe this year, I shall resolve to be a more active person in all parts of my life. I look forward to where God leads me this year.