dreams

I've been having crazy, crazy dreams these days. I never had so many consecutively that I could remember vividly. Even now, I just dozed off: in my dream, I had my knees up with my mac propped on them, and then all of a sudden, I slipped on the top step of the stairs and fell. The funny thing is I actually jerked like it actually happened. What is going on in my mind? Such real-life dreams... is my mind trying to say something to me?

one word.

RESTAURANT WEEK

Uhhhhhhhh....

I was bored.

A la carb

I'm obsessed with the whole grain bread from Panera.

Nutty, crunchy, flavorful. Enough said.

Oh, and Vision? It was unexpectedly, amazingly, a blessing time, and freaking awesome to serve as soonjang. God works in such funky ways, but I'm slowly learning, slowly learning :)

my small group- what an awesome group of girls!<3

pollyanna

Did you ever watch the movie "Pollyanna"? 

WATCH IT.

It's been a childhood movie of mine, but it's so so good in terms of optimism and personal attitude. Pollyanna is like, the queen of positivity.

Anyways, she is always glad about something, so this year, I'm going to always say something that I'm glad about, so that my heart may become more and more thankful for the things God gives me.

Today, I am so so glad that I went to soonjang training because God opened my eyes a leeetle more through Young Chae GSN's lil' pep talk. I am also VERY glad that I went to the training because I got to eat pizza! And I was really really craving pizza. Also, I'm glad that I got to help out at the office, however minute my help might have been. And I'm glad that I went to Eddie's place because I got to not only see a suhweet apartment but also got to eat Papa John's pizza AND wings! 

I welcome you

Another year has come and gone, and another new year has begun. 

This is my blog, and I'm not gonna pretend or hide any of myself in anyway. When I feel elated, you'll know it; when I'm utterly depressed, you'll know it. Still, even through my ups and downs on this so-called roller coaster of life, I have got my God on my side. I may not realize this at times, and I might sound like a fool, but I'm only momentarily hopeless. 

With that said, I just finished watching Sense and Sensibility, and Marianne reminds me a little of myself: impulsive with little thought to the consequences of her actions or words. Hmm... I feel like I think too much, yet too little at the same time. I am seriously just a walking contradiction as a person. Oy. I still need some sense knocked into me. 

A new year usually brings about resolutions, but I have never been good at keeping those. I have so many desires and wishes, but I lack the impetus to make them happen. This makes me really wonder if I have truly grown as a person- not in terms of spirituality because I have no doubt that God definitely has been blessing me so much- but in terms of humanity. I feel as if I am still innately the same lazy, selfish person. Every day, my indolence starts to disgust me more, but I can't help it. I choose comfort over... I don't know what the latter would be. 

So maybe this year, I shall resolve to be a more active person in all parts of my life. I look forward to where God leads me this year.